NewBeginning Girl

Ok I’m so ready for the holidays to be gone so I can get on an even keel again.  With my work schedule and flipping back to days I’m so confused!  Just a couple more weeks and then back to a more normal schedule for a few months to get me on the right track.  I have finished the first week of my Couch 2 5K and it was rough!  But I’m trekking along on my treadmill and trying to keep going.  I still feel like I’m not giving it my all.  I have too many days where I don’t eat right and don’t do anything!  Ugggggg.

Still working with my organizational book but right now the house is in dissaray!  Between all the presents that are out and need to be wrapped to all the stuff out getting ready to be made into scrumptious appetizers it’s driving me nuts!  Going to be a long week, but finishing up the last of shopping tonight (couple gift cards left to buy) and start the wrapping!

I sometimes feel I’m on the outside looking in on these last couple weeks of the year cause they just get so busy.  I keep saying "one day at a time" but needs to be more like "one hour at a time" 

I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday during the last weeks here in 2009 and please, please BE HAPPY AND BE SAFE!!!!!!!

Well I got up at 3:30am, popped in the DVD this morning and just stared at it while it was working out.  Didn’t do much for me sweat wize!  Uggggggg But I’m not giving up!  I’m gonna try again in the morning.  I am just not a morning person.  I did join a discussion group doing the c25k and am excited cause they are right with me or just a week or so ahead and there are about 11 of us.  That will keep me motivated I hope. 

I started week 2 of my organizational book today.  Not too bad so far.  It’s doing small things to get things going but not overwhelming so I like it.  So many new things to look forward to but at a slow pace.

I do have to admit when I weighed in this morning I was up 1.2# for 2 weeks.  But honestly I haven’t been doing the exercise or watching what I eat.  It was a bit surprising because I thought my pants felt looser, but I guess not!  Better start paying attention.  New week I can get serious now.  I thawed out a Boca Burger to make for supper instead of junk.  Plus I brought lunch.  I know there will be days during the holidays that will be unpredictable, but I can just be cautious.  POP!!! I’ve been drinking too much of that also.  I quit for 3 years and started drinking it again this summer unfortunately.  I only drink diet pop but still it’s now the wonderful flushing water!  Another thing to work on but later, not too much at once.

One thing at a time!!!!!

Oh me, back to day shift.  The wonderful world of shift work.  My alarm went off at 3:30 am this morning and I so did not want to get out of bed that early.  I just finished a month of night shifts now I get back in the groove of day shifts.  My shifts are 12 hours long and we do 4 on and 4 off, one month of days and one month of nights.  But you forget when you are trying to get back in the swing of things, how to prepare.  Example, I forgot that I needed to be in bed by 8:30 last night and drank a diet Mt. Dew at 6:00.  I went to the cities for some Christmas shopping and just forgot.  Luckily a Tylenol PM helped me sleep through the night. 

I did get a lot accomplished on my days off tho.  I’m setting up all new guidelines for me to start my new year.  I’m organizing and prioritizing.  I did get a fantastic find at Target.  Biggest Loser Health and Fitness kit.  This kit is awesome.  There’s a fantastic journal in it, plus a purse size one, it has a button to push and gives you daily inspiration, plus all the guidelines.  This made my choice for me.  Biggest Loser workouts!!!  I’m putting the rest away for quite a while.  Luckily they let you choose a cardio event so I can incorporate my Couch 2 5K in and continue to train for that.  With too many choices I never stick with it.  I packed away all my other choices and have just those DVD’s out!

This close to the end of the year it’s hard to start a routine, there’s always that "Ok Jan 1st….."  Was with my friend yesterday and we stopped and ate and of course he said "Ok when the new year gets here I gotta cut out this way of eating".  I always hate to do it that way.  Why not today????  What’s wrong with today or tomorrow?????  But just like almost everyone else it’ll be Jan 1st!  Of course with my hours it really shouldn’t matter cause my work week doesn’t usually start on a Monday or end on a Friday or the weekend be Sat or Sun, so why not start Thursday?

I did find out through reading another blog that there is a 5K here in my town in Sept.  That might be a fantastic way to keep me motivated if I go ahead now and sign up for it even though I can only run 60 seconds now.  I think it would keep me on track and wow, how exciting!!!  There is one in Fargo in May but I’m a little afraid of that.  How much out of my comfort zone do I wanna go?  I don’t wanna set myself up for failure, but Sept seems doable I think!

This morning I got up, had coffee and got ready for work.  Tomorrow’s goal is to get up, start coffee, do the Biggest Loser 30 day jump start DVD for Monday which starts at 10 min the first week, have coffee and get ready for work.  That will get me up and going and then my C25K when I get home.  Oh me it’s in writing now!!  I HAVE to do it. 

I bought a few frozen meals for suppers cause I’m usually tired and don’t have a lot of time when I get home before I have to go to bed.  You really have to watch those suckers.  They can be 180 cal and 2 grams of fat and a million grams of sodium.  Sheesh!  But I want to get back into cooking my meals, then I know what’s in them.  I lost my freezer this summer (terrible tragedy but thank goodness I was a veg head at the time cause no rotten meat) and I can’t cook as much up at a time, but I can make it way easier to track by cooking on my own.  I bring my food most times to work even though they feed us, it’s not the healtiest food in the world!! So I try my hardest to avoid it.

Small steps and acknowledge all the little goals!  I can do this.

Ok so while I was taking my shower to come to work tonight, I looked at my shower shelves.  I have the surround that has the shelves as long as the tub.  There were a lot of bottles on it.  So, I counted them.  13 bath washes, 2 shampoos, 4 conditioners, 2 body soaks, 2 sugar scrubs and a buff puff.  (This does not include the basket full in my bath closet either, these were just on the tub!)  THIS is one of my comfort zones.  Needing (so I think) so many selections.  One of the things I’m going to work on in leaving my comfort zone is the selections/choices and having too many.  I always think I need so many then I can’t decide which one I want.  Same with workout DVD’s.  I have a go-zillion!!!  Always thinking I’ll get to that level or it will be great then, poof!  I’ve go so many I can’t decide how to proceed, which one to pick, what plan’s the best!  Ugggggg.  It’s true, sometimes too many choices makes it impossible to choose.  This happens with my grandson, if I give him 2 choices he’ll think for a second and make a choice.  BUT, if I put out 5 different kinds of candy or cookies or whatever, he seems to think and think and think and then wants 2 or 3 instead of 1.  I’m exactly like that!!! I recognize this and will struggle with it but plan to put it all in check for the New Beginning!!!

This NewBeginning is for all aspects of my life.  Granted the health part is super important, but I think the rest is important to make me well rounded (and not my figure!!)  The Bath & Body Works items aren’t the only thing I do this with, so I will strive to get all areas of this in check.  I’m excited, a little scared, but so ready for this!!!  I want to become less rigid and more accepting to what is around me.  I live in an awesome area with so much fun things to do year round.  I wanna get out and enjoy it all!!!  "Bout time!

Wow my first entry!  I’m starting a little early cause I’m planning 2010 to be my year to leave my comfort zone!  I just got a new book about organizing my life and one of the first sentences is "GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE"  That’s how you make things happen!!

I have to admit, I’m not too afraid to try most things.  I made a HUGE move across the country at age 37 with no job in mind, then once I got here and found a job it lead to a HUGE career change at 38!  I’ve moved from the south to the north, so I’m quite capable of getting out of my comfort zone BUT I’m also capable of getting complacant and getting comfortable!  That’s when I tend to let things/me go!  I LOVE, LOVE my job!  BUT it also takes a lot out of me.  Very, very long hours, and a schedule that changes up all the time, days and nights!  But I’m a public servant and although I can get annoyed at times and am not supposed to show it, I love to help people!  I am also in Emergency Medical Services and love it also (I do both jobs and they go hand and hand)  911 operator and EMT.  Hard to believe since I was the type that totally panicked if something happened most of my life!   As the 911 operator I sit for 12 hour shifts and when I pick up an EMT shift it’s a lot of sitting and waiting for a call or driving down to the larger metro area to bring a patient from our smaller tourist area to their more qualified hospitals.  My former profession was administrative assistant/officer manager and I was GREAT at it, just ask my former boss!  Sooooooo with that little history, I think it’s clear I’m capable of jumping out of my comfort zone! 

Again, for 2010 that’s what I want to do!  I’m starting the Couch-2-5k training program to get weight off, get in shape and become fit and healthy.  That’s what this blog’s gonna be for.  I’ve been following a couple of blogs on people taking charge of their lives and making their plans come true.  Maybe if I’m responsible to someone other than myself I can continue on and get my plan done!  I don’t know if anyone will read this or not, but I can log on and type it like I have a cheering section!!!

I’m spending the last few weeks of 2009 preparing myself.  Starting slow with a little exercise to ease into it and mentally prepare myself.  I want to try cross country skiing, I made snow shoes (yep, I made them) last winter and this year I wanna trek all over the lakes with them and plan to buy a kayak this year and kayak all over my county this coming year.  Lots to look forward to and plan.  I hope it’s a fun journey!